What's next ?

Right now, I just want to live at the moment, enjoy the freedom of being free from any strings.  

Here I go again, escaping to my favorite city. 

Lost Kids in Our Twenties...

I believe everyone has that kind of phase in their life that they feel lost. To me, well to all my friends around me that are in our quarter twenties, we actually feel lost. 

Most of all just graduated from uni, got our degree, but, what's next ? Work? eek. Continue studying? eek. We don't know. We actually don't know. The degree that we have obtained, is that enough to make a living? Fresh grad, started working, is that what we really want to do for the rest of our life? Do we really like the job? Do we really want to undertake this path? Hmmm, we don't know. We don't know what to do in life. 

Study, work, secure a job, be a salary slave....? But is there any other choices? What else can we do? 

This got me thinking, what do I want to do in life? I am pursuing a law degree, with only one mindset,  I wanna be admitted to bar and be a lawyer. and then? But I am not very sure is that what I love to do. To be honest, I don't know what I wanna achieve in life. I am pretty sure I don't want to work for my whole life as a lawyer. It is not interesting at all. I want to do something that I love and make a living; and not make a living and do something I don't like at all. 

Why is this happening to us? I think mostly because we don't have a dream. We are too used to the comfort that our parents fed us, no dreams, no achievement, no direction in life. 

Now, I am trying all the possibilities to find things that I love doing, and don't mind doing for my entire life. After thinking for almost a year, I finally know what I love. Things that affect me in my daily life, things that I love to do everyday and don't mind doing and things that make me feel so much happier when I am down. So, I have decided to catch my dream, even though it is risky and also hard. I am making my first step regardless. Hopefully this is a wise choice in life. Hopefully. I just need to pray and put more hard work to achieve my dreams, so I am in here hoping that everyone who comes across my blog, get yourself a dream and chase towards that direction. That would definitely make you feel alive again and help you find your direction. 

Good luck.

love, 

J x

My Acne Treatment Journey

I used to have a very bad acne infection. When I came to Australia 4 years ago, for the first time in record, my skin started to become reddish with all the dots and yellowish acne. I let it be for months, thought it could be just a random breakouts, and in the end, acne virus just spread all over my face, and it looked exactly like my picture below. Imagine that on both sides of your face. HOW SAD WAS THAT ???? And the most sad part was, I didn't do anything to fix it except for changing my facial products cause I thought that was the initial problem that my face had. 

I cried in the morning when I woke up to this face. I thought I looked fugly but I still did not go and see doctor. I waited for more than half a year, and went to see a dermatologist when I was back in my home country for the first time. I was encouraged by a friend's mother who know my skin specialist in Malaysia, he  is a very very good skin doctor, perhaps I think he is the best dermatologist ever. He scolded me for not getting my face treated with a specialist ASAP when I noticed the seriousness. I was diagnosed with seasonal acne infection and this was my skin condition when I first started the treatment.

My doctor gave me a 4 months anti-biotics, called Doxyclycines, (as i could remember Doxycyclines are used to kill the bacteria or virus of the acne). He also gave me few tubes of Stieva-A 0.025% cream, which as far as I know it is the lowest percentage for a topical acne treatment. I took the anti-biotics, one capsule a day, and it must, MUST BE taken right after dinner. As in, your stomach must not be empty. and apparently, some people can't take the antibiotics as it has very strong negative effects and it is a prescribed medicine. My friend used to take it for a week and it upsets her stomach till she vomited the whole week. I had a few experience with vomiting as well cause I didn't take it right after my meal and stupidly thought that it was okay to take without meal once in a while but IT WASN'T OKAY. I PUKED. so take your instruction seriously when it comes to medicine. I also applied the Stieva-A cream every night without missed. But I started with applying it by once in two days, or skipping one day (if that makes more sense) cause it dries up my face really badly when I first started using it. And I think they stop selling this Stieva-A brands anymore, a more common one nowadays is Differin or Retin-A.  

oh and another side reminder, always always always always apply sun block during the day time. regardless indoor or outdoor, sunblock is a must to protect your skin from aging and also dark spots that cause from the UV rays. I am using this Cetaphil everyday moisturizer with SPF50, cause I think this suits me best. I tried Clinique City Block SPF 40 before, it is also very good but because this Cetaphil also acts as a moisturizer and its much much cheaper than the Clinique one, so the asian in me choose to use Cetaphil haha!

After 12months treatment, TADDAAAAAA !!! My almost perfect skin !!!! and honestly, until today, I am still using the Stieva-A cream every night, basically that's my night cream. I still have my last tube and might need to hunt for an alternative cream as Stieva-A is not on the market anymore :( #SOBS

HEHEHEHHE see this is my confident selfie photo. I am really really thankful that I met my doctor, truly my life savor. Without him, I will still be the girl that has very very bad skin and spam inches of foundation and has very low confidence in herself . Not to say that now I am very confident la but having a good skin really really boosts one's confidence up. SO GIRLS AND BOYS, GO AND SEE A SPECIALIST if you have any skin problem before its too late !!! Don't wait !!!

Good Luck. 

xx Jo xx

Words

Be strong :)

Everyone that had been hurt would definitely understand the feeling of heart broken. Usually, a sour ending of previous relationship will bring one person into a sad phase, and if it is serious, sinking into depression is possible. But don't worry, you are not alone. I believe many of us had the experience of heart broken pain before, but you just have to remember, keep your feet together, keep walking, your heart might not be able to take it now, but your feet are stronger than you thought. 

Sometimes it is not about how much it hurts, its about the disappointment that you had after you put ten millions of hope and faith but in the end it gave you nothing but a broken trust. And sometimes it is about the companionship that you used to have when you were in a relationship, and when you lost it, you feel like your life lost a piece of puzzle. and sometimes, it is just memories that still stay in your head. And sometimes, its the dream that has been manipulated in the relationship, and suddenly when everything didn't work, your only dream will just be gone forever. Its like the footprints that you left by the shore, once the wave came and its varnished forever. and that, is the saddest part of everything.

All you need to do is to find a new direction, find a new dream, and start moving to get there. Regardless it is a big or small dream, like losing that 10 pounds, be prettier, to get a doctor degree, saving 10k in your bank account, or going to places that you have always dreamed to go. So stop crying, now is the time to start taking your first step to make it happen. It is hard at the first place, but all these things will get you distracted from the mindfking memories, it will stop you from thinking of the pain, it will help you move on with your life. Trust me, when you are in the middle of making your new dream, you will find yourself much contented and hell happier than before.

Once a relationship breaks, it is forever broken. You can't bend it back to normal. Once you make a wound, there is forever a scar. All you can do is to keep walking forward, everything will be fine, tomorrow will be better, time is the only healer. Depression only takes a tiny small phase in your life. Just keep walking, you will soon the light. And this is me, speaking based on my own experience, and now I am all well and recovered. Depression is not a shameful thing to admit (I used to be embarrassed about it), even I can do it, You can it too. 

Don't give up.

Have faith in life.

God loves you more than you know.

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#OOTD FOR LAST WEEK

There is nothing very interesting going on in my life, I have been really busy in working on my dream,and my part time work and bla bla blah.. Plus these two weeks were like the busiest weeks of my uni, three assignments due on the same week and one presentation this week. Even though I am a real busy bee, I never forget to take picture of my #ootd pictures I am such a committed blogger LOL

This is what I wore on Monday, cause I was really busy so I have no time to dress up obviously, so going simple is the key element in this week dressing LOL *keyelement* what a word.

Wore a pair of extremely skinny jeans (doesn't look that skinny in the picture), matched it with a mint green button shirt that has gold color collar tipped at the end (i think i blogged about this shirt before lol) and of course another oversized pullover to make it more hipster looking ! hipster hipster hipster ftw!

oh and a pair of vintage brown loafer and the hipster look is complete yeepie !

NEXT, I need to go to uni and go to work after uni, so t shirts and jeggings for some comfort ! Wore my favorite kurt cobain t-shirt yayyy and to make it look more fashionable, or maybe more hipster looking, I folded the sleeves up, what do you think ? HAH, checked on the mirror and still looked dull cause its just a t-shirt duh, so I wear a knitted hat and a maroon color ankle boots. But I am going simple on working day anyway so simple is more? HAHAHAHHAHA

Heh, and another cold day came, another simple outfit that I wore: A white tank top with brown wool cardigan and a boyfriend jeans (from witchery) and of course a scarf for cold day, and it has to be a red one. Cause red goes with white. Cause I said so. HAHA. tadaa, folded the bottom of the jeans of course, to make it look more trendy and fun or else why'd you think I like to fold so much ?! LOL sounds wrong *I like to fold* HAHAHAHHA 

And then, Saturday is here !!! Of course, being a typical youngster, Saturday night is party night, I would not miss out all the fun of being young babe hehehhee . So I went out to a friend's birthday party, went to town, went to a bar with full of whites and we were the only table with all asians, drank wine, and TOOK PICTURES ! 

So this is what I wore: A pencil skirt (very tight cause I wanna look more slutty in club lol) and a chiffon loose top boink wore my most expensive Gianvitto Rossi heels with Valentino studded clutch , boink. and snap, take picture again. 

Taddaa, another snap, picture time ! This is my only full body length picture for my outfit on that night and I thought I looked good so ya, enjoy ! hehehe and my friend looked gorgeous on her mint green plaited skirt as well ! She knows what suits her best :D

Lastly, no selfie photo this time! enjoy reading guys :D

lotsoflove, 

xx Jo Anne xx

What to wear ?

The first thing I think of when I wake up is "WHAT TO WEAR". No matter what occasions, plans, events, themed parties, or just going to uni and work, I will for sure get a headache and also because of that, I am always late, especially morning classes haha #firstworldgirlproblem it seems. 

I am sure every girl has the same problem as me every morning, so I decided to make a post about what to wear for uni or part time work or you can call it casual street style wear or whateverz you like. 

What I wore: A white collared shirt with black polkadots where I got at an extremely cheap price back in Malaysia but the material is really good, SCORE ! It was a tad bit of cold yesterday, so I put on a dark brown knitted pull over, which is the key piece that makes my whole look appears more fashionable UISEH hahahahahha calling myself fashionable so no shame. 

I go with my favorite pair of denim highwaisted shorts, and wore leggings cause it was cold, and if you want to achieve a slimmer legs, put on a pair of black leggings, it will for sho work the magic :D 

chaching !! my full body #ootd look but the picture appears to be blurry cause of my dirty mirror LOL please don't judge I will clean it soon my room and wardrobe are very messy right now eeek

HEHEHHEE this picture is so not related to this post, but it is still a trendable picture right HAHAHAHA 

I really really love this mustache beanie, it is really cute !!! and cheap !! If you happen to reside in Australia, better be quick and go grab in from Jay Jays its only $5 ! Even if you won't wear it its still worth to buy it for instagram purpose HAHAHHAA but this beanie does keep you warm, cause it covers till your ear and it really can make you look extra cute with only 5 dollars thing, so why not invest on one right? 

ok this is another What I Wore picture, but it looks a bit grainy I don't know what happened to my camera :(  I got the top from Bangkok also another steal, I think it was only 200 Thai Baht so its equivalent to 6 AUD? I know don't be jealous I get all the good deals when I shop hehehehe

I accessories this look with a chunky necklace I got from DIVA Australia for $18, it is not expensive but in comparison to my other cheap stuff, my necklace seems expensive hahaha even the pale blue brogue shoes that I wore was only $5 as well !! HAHAHAHAHA I am a true asian in heart and soul

TADAAAA, another selfie photo I took this morning, right after I dolled myself up with tonnes of make ups and hair products LOL and to be frank, I took 10 selfie photos but only dare to post one cause I think I need to show some decency to be less shameless cause not many people would want to see my face LOL

and lastly, this ain't a DUCK FACE 

have fun reading guys

with love, 

x Jo Anne x